hold me FOR LAST TIME

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before 
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finally deleted my Facebook.. i knw i did wrong but...anyways...
went to hospital with mom for her eye check up... doctor made us wait for so long like he always doo.. bt relief that he said no for another operation.. directly went to gym
humid day was sweating like hell dair..spent olmost 3to 4 hrs, again my lower back started giving pain.. so i started yoga at gym hehe..  and again aahh mom scolded me for my messed up room she want me to stay here in India but mom how can i make u understand i don't like anything here anymore.. she is angry i knw she will understand soon...

i hv my exam before leaving so need to study 
good night

For u mom..

A smile I saw on your glowing face,
When you first realized the signs
Two hearts inside you began to pace,
A soul inside of you made you feel gentle pains
I was small, I was scared a lot

To open my eyes in a world I wasn't a part of
You carried me in your womb all the while,
Every move of mine caused you pain, yet there was always a gentle smile
You were the beacon of light guiding me to life,
Pampering me with love despite all your strife.

My first cries were heard and I saw radiant smiles,
Thus began my little journey of a million miles
You held me close, you fed me your share,
I realized motherhood is something sacred and rare
You helped me walk, you followed my every stumble,
You taught me to live, how to be noble

I look back at those years and then I see
Tears of gratitude fill my eyes and I smile with glee
Like a candle eroding itself to spread the light,
You gave it all to make me wise and bright.

Nobody’s equal to you, mum,
With you in my life, I'm blessed,
I love you so, and I want you to know,
I think you’re the very best.

Words cannot say how I love you, mum,
And just how much I owe,
Please know that I’ll always be there for you too,
In the high times and low.

DREAMING

so many memories,so many time
as you can see, i can't stop thinking about you
you make me smile,you make me happy,
but the day you hurt me,i thought I was dreaming,
but when i realize it was true ,
i couldn't stop thinking about you

but today all the memories are gone
I've finally got over you,but the only thing i miss
was your smiles,that's the only last memories i have of you

but i realy want still have a relationship,
a relationship that we can be friends
so i can see you smile again ,
and the memories will so long come back again 

We'll Meet Someday...

I turn on my computer
and look for the light,
it makes me smile cause
it's an invite.
Me and my friend get on
the screen and chat bout,
our hopes and dreams.
Sometimes we laugh till our
sides are sore, and sometimes
we cry till we can't anymore.
We've never met, never touched,
never seen each other smile,
we've touched hearts without
walking a mile.

Someday we'll meet and we'll talk
face to face, and share tears and
smiles we can never replace.
Just want you to know, you mean the
world to me, there's a place in my
heart where you'll always be

MOVE ON..

“When I was little and running on the race track at school, I always stopped and waited for all the other kids so we could run together even though I knew (and everybody else knew) that I could run much faster than all of them! I pretended to read slowly so I could "wait" for everyone else who couldn't read as fast as I could! When my friends were short I pretended that I was short too and if my friend was sad I pretended to be unhappy.

 I could go on and on about all the ways I have limited myself, my whole life, by "waiting" for people. And the only thing that I've ever received in return is people thinking that they are faster than me, people thinking that they can make me feel bad about myself just because I let them and people thinking that I have to do whatever they say I should do. My mother used to teach me "Cinderella is a perfect example to be" but I have learned that Cinderella can go fuck herself, I'm not waiting for anybody, anymore! I'm going to run as fast as I can, fly as high as I can, I am going to soar and if you want you can come with me! But I'm not waiting for you anymore.” 

♥  ♥  ♥  ....watching you walk out of my life.. doesn't make me bitter or cynical about love.

it makes me realize that if i wanted so much to be with wrong person,

how amazing it will be when the right one comes along ....♥  ♥  ♥

I KNOW THINGS WILL CHANGE i believe..

We were close friends
I believed you were sent from above..
And when I needed you most
you were always there
till the day you found love
And had to move away
But I knew you still cared
For we still can be friends
Only from a distance
Through phones lines we'd talk
Did not make the difference
We were still friends

Even though long distance
I do miss our sleepovers
And the pranks you'd pull
And our long talks and
Our laughs we used to share
And how you made me feel better
Just by being there
I miss you my friend
And I know you still care
We are friends forever
You and I Friends till the end
The day I die

I LOVE U CAUSE U R U..

                       I don’t know how you do it,
                        But you do it every day
             You make me love you more and more,
                       With every passing day.
                    It’s not the way you hold me,
                       Or listen when I talk.

 

It’s not the way you look at me,
Or hold my hand when we walk.
It’s not the way you make love to me,
Or kiss me the way you do.
It’s everything you do for me
I love you ‘cause you're you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUSHYANT JI

for a person who is like my my dad but i will love to call him my best friend.. i respect him like i never did for anyone else before and its a special day for my friend so i dedicate this small video to him.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY...