“When I was little and running on the race track at school, I always
stopped and waited for all the other kids so we could run together even
though I knew (and everybody else knew) that I could run much faster
than all of them! I pretended to read slowly so I could "wait" for
everyone else who couldn't read as fast as I could! When my friends were
short I pretended that I was short too and if my friend was sad I
pretended to be unhappy.
I could go on and on about all the ways I have limited myself, my whole life, by "waiting" for people. And the only thing that I've ever received in return is people thinking that they are faster than me, people thinking that they can make me feel bad about myself just because I let them and people thinking that I have to do whatever they say I should do. My mother used to teach me "Cinderella is a perfect example to be" but I have learned that Cinderella can go fuck herself, I'm not waiting for anybody, anymore! I'm going to run as fast as I can, fly as high as I can, I am going to soar and if you want you can come with me! But I'm not waiting for you anymore.”
I could go on and on about all the ways I have limited myself, my whole life, by "waiting" for people. And the only thing that I've ever received in return is people thinking that they are faster than me, people thinking that they can make me feel bad about myself just because I let them and people thinking that I have to do whatever they say I should do. My mother used to teach me "Cinderella is a perfect example to be" but I have learned that Cinderella can go fuck herself, I'm not waiting for anybody, anymore! I'm going to run as fast as I can, fly as high as I can, I am going to soar and if you want you can come with me! But I'm not waiting for you anymore.”
when u were child u w8ted and were not alone. Now u dunn want to w8 anymore and sore high in the sky of loneliness rendering urself alone.
ReplyDeleteAgain an amazing post that i went through.. I liked the decent and cute beginning.. talking about the childhood.. n i really can make out that we being a child we never cared really what winning is the only thing that we were bothered about that time was being together.. and with friends.. But as the time changes things changes too.. so you pretended yourself at the end of the post too being practical, making your mind work but burying the heart somewhere.. nice post.. keep up..
ReplyDeletethis i wort for those who feel i am weak... they dont knw what i am and will show them soon
ReplyDeletegreat.. all the best n luck to you.. i know you will do it..
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