Really heart touching...

I was walking around in a Big Bazar store making shopping, when I saw a Cashier talking to a boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old..

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll. Then the little boy turned to me and asked: ''Uncle, are you sure I don't have enough money?''

I counted his cash and replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy the doll, my dear.'' The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much . I wanted to Gift her for her BIRTHDAY.

I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God.. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister...''

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so my sister won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly..

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose. My mommy loves white roses.'

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever...

The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

LOST The REAL Meee...

I lost..!!

The day I left u to fight alone when I promised you that I will be with you forever..

I lost... When I asked you the reason the way reacted whereas I thought I understand your feelings. A good friend in you, when I thought I had a friend who is more than like a heart of mine…

Yes It was all my mistake or may be not I am not blaming either you nor myself time was not mine which I tried my best to make it mine things was moving like anything in front of me and all i could do was nothing..

WISH…

I could make things stable as they were...then the world will b mine, colors of life will b back. Life is never smooth I heard of it but when I am going through tough part of life where I can experience it at my own must say its too tough facing things all alone with you would be here with me to face things

i know it it not possible.. bcz i left you when you NEEDED me most.. i left you to fight ALONE.. i didnt even BOTHERED i dont know how it happen i was soo ROUDE to you i don't how what made me do that.. i will always REGRET 

 

I lost a friend, joy of life, innocence, smile, and many more which I can’t even count..

I miss the REAL meee… 

hold me FOR LAST TIME

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay
You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before 
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finally deleted my Facebook.. i knw i did wrong but...anyways...
went to hospital with mom for her eye check up... doctor made us wait for so long like he always doo.. bt relief that he said no for another operation.. directly went to gym
humid day was sweating like hell dair..spent olmost 3to 4 hrs, again my lower back started giving pain.. so i started yoga at gym hehe..  and again aahh mom scolded me for my messed up room she want me to stay here in India but mom how can i make u understand i don't like anything here anymore.. she is angry i knw she will understand soon...

i hv my exam before leaving so need to study 
good night

For u mom..

A smile I saw on your glowing face,
When you first realized the signs
Two hearts inside you began to pace,
A soul inside of you made you feel gentle pains
I was small, I was scared a lot

To open my eyes in a world I wasn't a part of
You carried me in your womb all the while,
Every move of mine caused you pain, yet there was always a gentle smile
You were the beacon of light guiding me to life,
Pampering me with love despite all your strife.

My first cries were heard and I saw radiant smiles,
Thus began my little journey of a million miles
You held me close, you fed me your share,
I realized motherhood is something sacred and rare
You helped me walk, you followed my every stumble,
You taught me to live, how to be noble

I look back at those years and then I see
Tears of gratitude fill my eyes and I smile with glee
Like a candle eroding itself to spread the light,
You gave it all to make me wise and bright.

Nobody’s equal to you, mum,
With you in my life, I'm blessed,
I love you so, and I want you to know,
I think you’re the very best.

Words cannot say how I love you, mum,
And just how much I owe,
Please know that I’ll always be there for you too,
In the high times and low.

DREAMING

so many memories,so many time
as you can see, i can't stop thinking about you
you make me smile,you make me happy,
but the day you hurt me,i thought I was dreaming,
but when i realize it was true ,
i couldn't stop thinking about you

but today all the memories are gone
I've finally got over you,but the only thing i miss
was your smiles,that's the only last memories i have of you

but i realy want still have a relationship,
a relationship that we can be friends
so i can see you smile again ,
and the memories will so long come back again 

We'll Meet Someday...

I turn on my computer
and look for the light,
it makes me smile cause
it's an invite.
Me and my friend get on
the screen and chat bout,
our hopes and dreams.
Sometimes we laugh till our
sides are sore, and sometimes
we cry till we can't anymore.
We've never met, never touched,
never seen each other smile,
we've touched hearts without
walking a mile.

Someday we'll meet and we'll talk
face to face, and share tears and
smiles we can never replace.
Just want you to know, you mean the
world to me, there's a place in my
heart where you'll always be

MOVE ON..

“When I was little and running on the race track at school, I always stopped and waited for all the other kids so we could run together even though I knew (and everybody else knew) that I could run much faster than all of them! I pretended to read slowly so I could "wait" for everyone else who couldn't read as fast as I could! When my friends were short I pretended that I was short too and if my friend was sad I pretended to be unhappy.

 I could go on and on about all the ways I have limited myself, my whole life, by "waiting" for people. And the only thing that I've ever received in return is people thinking that they are faster than me, people thinking that they can make me feel bad about myself just because I let them and people thinking that I have to do whatever they say I should do. My mother used to teach me "Cinderella is a perfect example to be" but I have learned that Cinderella can go fuck herself, I'm not waiting for anybody, anymore! I'm going to run as fast as I can, fly as high as I can, I am going to soar and if you want you can come with me! But I'm not waiting for you anymore.”